I’m writing this post in one of those brain hazes that comes at the end of a particularly busy day – you know that feeling when you can sort of think straight but it’s all a little fuzzy? That feeling when all you feel like doing is pulling on your pyjamas (done!) and a hoodie (done!) and curling up in a ball in front of a movie you’ve seen a thousand times? (Harry Potter on pause right now!) Yeah, that.
I’m not even sure where this post is going. I guess it’s an update. Or just brain vomit.
So, what’s going on with me? Well, you might have noticed this week (as in, the past 7 days) that I have been daily blogging. This started out as an accident – I just scheduled posts on the wrong day and then had a couple of drafts ready to go and decided to see how hard it would be to post daily….turns out, if my brain isn’t turned to mush, it’s not too hard…..today however, my brain feels it might just be full of cobwebs and bits of fluff…so this is what you get on the Tuesday morning when this post is scheduled….sheer drivel!
Today, I worked in an office. An actual-grown-up office.
I know to the majority of people reading this, that is not a big deal. At all. But for me, I’ve worked freelance since I graduated – singing, recording, teaching, gigging, writing and blogging….and since I spent a week in an office aged 15 for work experience, I just haven’t done it.
So that’s why my brain has turned a little bit to goo.
I didn’t even realise how much I had been absorbing and learning all day until I got home and sat at my desk to write a post and there was just nothing. I never have nothing. There is always some foolish idea floating around my brain that I can at least attempt to turn into something before I come up with a better idea. But I had nothing. (I also had nothing planned idea-wise, which I think is an error….I must plan better!)
I tip my hat to those of you out there who work a 9-5 job every day and blog too…I honestly don’t know how you do it. My creativity has been completely zapped!
I still haven’t decided if I’m going to hit “Publish” on this post. I’m pretty sure that around 98% of it may actually be in another language that only my cotton wool filled brain can translate.
I’m also still not entirely sure what this post is about, if, indeed it is about anything… maybe I really am just typing my brain mushed internal monologue!
Oh, also, for those wondering, the whole “working in an office” thing is just temporary. I’m not throwing in the towel on the freelance lifestyle and joining the throngs with sensible jobs just yet!
I’m just playing pretend in a life I’ve never led (kinda like Gwyneth Paltrow in “Sliding Doors” – getting to see what it’d be like, but all the time knowing it’s not what I really am!) at least for a little while – whilst helping my bank balance look a little more happy!
Anyway, at the risk of talking any more rubbish, I’m going to make myself a cup of tea and watch the second half of Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (I couldn’t finish it last night!) before bed.
I guess today basically just gave me brain mush and bloggers block (is that a thing?!) and now I’ve written a post that may or may not make sense….I’m still not sure!
p.s. Daily blogging or almost daily blogging (5 days a week maybe?) what do we think?
I only want to post when I actually have something to say, and not just post for the sake of it…but what do you think?
I think I’m going to see how it goes…:-)