I’m writing this post in one of those brain hazes that comes at the end of a particularly busy day – you know that feeling when you can sort of think straight but it’s all a little fuzzy? That feeling when all you feel like doing is pulling on your pyjamas (done!) and a hoodie (done!) and curling up in a ball in front of a movie you’ve seen a thousand times? (Harry Potter on pause right now!) Yeah, that.
I’m not even sure where this post is going. I guess it’s an update. Or just brain vomit.
So, what’s going on with me? Well, you might have noticed this week (as in, the past 7 days) that I have been daily blogging. This started out as an accident – I just scheduled posts on the wrong day and then had a couple of drafts ready to go and decided to see how hard it would be to post daily….turns out, if my brain isn’t turned to mush, it’s not too hard…..today however, my brain feels it might just be full of cobwebs and bits of fluff…so this is what you get on the Tuesday morning when this post is scheduled….sheer drivel!
Today, I worked in an office. An actual-grown-up office.
I know to the majority of people reading this, that is not a big deal. At all. But for me, I’ve worked freelance since I graduated – singing, recording, teaching, gigging, writing and blogging….and since I spent a week in an office aged 15 for work experience, I just haven’t done it.
So that’s why my brain has turned a little bit to goo.
I didn’t even realise how much I had been absorbing and learning all day until I got home and sat at my desk to write a post and there was just nothing. I never have nothing. There is always some foolish idea floating around my brain that I can at least attempt to turn into something before I come up with a better idea. But I had nothing. (I also had nothing planned idea-wise, which I think is an error….I must plan better!)
I tip my hat to those of you out there who work a 9-5 job every day and blog too…I honestly don’t know how you do it. My creativity has been completely zapped!
I still haven’t decided if I’m going to hit “Publish” on this post. I’m pretty sure that around 98% of it may actually be in another language that only my cotton wool filled brain can translate.
I’m also still not entirely sure what this post is about, if, indeed it is about anything… maybe I really am just typing my brain mushed internal monologue!
Oh, also, for those wondering, the whole “working in an office” thing is just temporary. I’m not throwing in the towel on the freelance lifestyle and joining the throngs with sensible jobs just yet!
I’m just playing pretend in a life I’ve never led (kinda like Gwyneth Paltrow in “Sliding Doors” – getting to see what it’d be like, but all the time knowing it’s not what I really am!) at least for a little while – whilst helping my bank balance look a little more happy!
Anyway, at the risk of talking any more rubbish, I’m going to make myself a cup of tea and watch the second half of Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (I couldn’t finish it last night!) before bed.
I guess today basically just gave me brain mush and bloggers block (is that a thing?!) and now I’ve written a post that may or may not make sense….I’m still not sure!
p.s. Daily blogging or almost daily blogging (5 days a week maybe?) what do we think?
I only want to post when I actually have something to say, and not just post for the sake of it…but what do you think?
I think I’m going to see how it goes…:-)
Charity HowellSeptember 15, 2015 at 9:07 am
I have this problem all the time too! Lol you're not definitely not alone. I work full time and go to school full time so sometimes I think "did the post make sense? eh probably" 😂
ReneeSeptember 15, 2015 at 10:58 am
I totally know what you mean! There are times when I have ideas running through my mind constantly and then i'll have absolutely nothing to say/write for about a week! Working a 9-5 job while blogging isn't too hard but usually you end up having to write tons of posts during the weekend to schedule out for the week!
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Flora EmaySeptember 15, 2015 at 12:57 pm
Hello Rosie 🙂 Ooh er, I remember office-brain mush! It's very true – for me at least, it totally zapped all creative thoughts or drive to do a damn thing after work! I mostly just collapsed in a heap infront of the TV and ignored my laundry pile. Freelancing is definitely better for blogging, but offices are definiely better for the bank balance. I guess you win some, you lose some! I'm trying to crack the magic formula, so I'll let you know if I ever figure it out 😉
Rachel SSeptember 15, 2015 at 2:23 pm
This was so inspirational – I always want to put these kinds of posts up but I always think it would sound too rubbish. Thank-you for making me realise they are worth reading and totally awesome.
Rosie LadkinOctober 5, 2015 at 8:55 pm
Oh my god! Literally, my brain just didn't function! I'm back to self-employment now so I have the days to write which is so much better!
I don't know how anyone does it! 🙂
Rosie LadkinOctober 5, 2015 at 8:56 pm
I honestly don't know how you do it! I'm back to self-employment now so I've got the time to write and brain-storm ideas but it has certainly given me a newfound respect for you 9-5ers!
Hats off to you!
Rosie LadkinOctober 5, 2015 at 8:57 pm
Yeah, I'm back freelancing now – my brain turned to goo, I literally had no idea how to function!
Hats off to you – Amazing!
Rosie LadkinOctober 5, 2015 at 8:58 pm
No! always put the posts up!! It's just being honest and talking about the shit that we all deal with on a daily basis.
So glad you liked it!