There have been days in the past 6 months where I have literally questioned everything. From where I’m living, to my job, to my love life (or lack thereof!) and pretty much everything in between.
I think a lot of it is just part of being a “grown-up” but that doesn’t stop it being scary. Questioning whether you’ve made the right decisions in your life and wondering where you are going to end up and if you are actually going to achieve the things you work so damn hard for. It’s tough.
But actually, we all do it. We all worry. We all question things. It’s totally normal. Because, actually, unless you have some incredible future-seeing power (in which case, we need a cuppa, a slice of cake, and a serious chat please?!) none of us know what is going to happen next. None of us know if we are going to get what we want. Or when things are going to happen. We don’t know who we are going to end up with or what we are going to do with the rest of our lives. We can’t tell the future.
We all worry. But actually, isn’t it easier to just enjoy the ride. What’s the worst thing that can happen!?
I’ve been in a bit of a funny place over the past few months. Not really knowing what is going to happen next, and I was scared. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I was scared to make any decision in case it shut doors on things I know I want.
But I’ve decided to do the things that will make me happy right now – and not worry so much about the future. The future will come no matter what, so why waste time now worrying about it?!
I’ve accepted this amazing opportunity which I will tell you all about as soon as I can. And the past couple of days, pretty much every time I’ve opened my inbox there has been something there that has made me do a little happy dance. In the past few days there have actually been two occasions where I’ve had to excuse myself to have a little silent squeal in the ladies loos and compose myself. The past few days have been good days! Busy, but good!
Things seem to be happening. Things I never expected; that I never saw coming.
Of course, we all have good days and bad days, we’re only human, but at the end of the day whatever happens will happen whether we lose sleep worrying about it or not, so what’s the point in being scared?
I choose to be happy.
The ominous “future” might be scary and unknown, but “right now” is pretty damn awesome!