Ideas, Honesty and Magic

Maybe it’s the weather.
Maybe it’s hormones.
Maybe it’s lack of sleep.
Maybe it’s something else.

But the past few days I’ve had precisely zero ideas.

This never happens. I always have ideas. Something buzzing around in my head that I feel like writing about. Seeing someone in the street and it making me think. Having an argument or a conversation or seeing something on the tv and it sparking something. Anything – I normally don’t have any trouble at all.

Everything has been a bit busy the past week.

I’ve been signing things and sorting things and planning things.
I have sent about 548938986 emails.
and had about 834927 phone calls.
It’s been one of those weeks where your brain doesn’t stop while you are asleep and you wake yourself up thinking of things you’ve forgotten to do.

My mind has been buzzing with stuff. Just stuff. I don’t even know what.
I’ve been sat at my desk, macbook open, candle lit, quiet music playing and NOTHING!
It’s completely infuriating!

I guess it’s ‘blogger’s block’. I didn’t even realise that was a thing until the past 2 days.

So, I’m going to get away.
Today I’m packing up my car and going back down to The Roundhouse in Cornwall – My Magic Place.
I’m going to walk along the beach, eat fish & chips and sit in the hot tub with a glass of wine. I’m not going to worry. I’m going to relax. I’m going to give myself a break. And the ideas will come back. I know they will.

I’m not writing this because I’m feeling sorry for myself. I’m not writing this for sympathy or anything like that.
I’m writing this because I want my blog to be real. And honest. And if I’m not writing and I’m not posting anything, I want to be honest and tell you that it’s just being a tricky week – It happens, when you are writing about life – life sometimes isn’t all perfect filters and insta-worthy moments. Sometimes it goes a bit black and white, and you need to relax to pump the colour back in. (ooh, listen to me going all insta-metaphor!)

Creativity isn’t something that can be forced – and I don’t want to try to force it.
Here’s hoping my magic place can work its magic again today! 🙂
R xx

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