So, I have always said on this blog that I will be completely honest and I will never try to filter my life to make it seem more shiny or snazzy than it actually is.
As such, you may have noticed that my blog has been a little quiet recently….and by that, I mean VERY quiet!
Sometimes, things are just a bit shit and there is nothing you can do about it. It’s all you can do to keep functioning, moving forward and trying to find a way through it all. Everyone has times like this and I’m not ashamed to admit that the past few months have been pretty tricky. I didn’t want to keep posting recipes for yummy chocolate things or how I went somewhere wonderful etc when actually what I needed was to take the pressure off myself and give myself a bit of a break from it all. I love this blog and the opportunities is has brought me, and I didn’t want to start thinking of it as a chore, so I have taken the pressure off myself for a bit so I can continue enjoying it this much (and hopefully producing content that you guys enjoy too!)
Things seem to be becoming clearer now (I hope!). They seem to be moving forward and I know what I want, I just need all the pieces to fall into place (cross your fingers please!) – as soon as anything gets sorted properly I will let you know all about it on here, but I just wanted to post something on here to explain my less frequent posting etc.
They always say that everyone is fighting a battle that you don’t know about and this applies to literally everyone but the people I see it most in is the people I know and have worked with in the theatre industry. I just want to send a huge virtual hug to you all, because it is HARD. The waiting, the rejection, the hours of working terrible jobs handing out flyers in train stations in the rain just to pay the rent when you are between jobs, working so so hard and feeling more than a little like the hard work you are putting in isn’t paying off….it’s tough. And yet these people are some of the most positive, creative and inspiring people I’ve ever met, and every single one of them is fighting this battle with the industry, and their own self-belief (because often that is all you have when auditions are getting tough!) – questioning your own ability and skill set is a daily occurrence and that can be really draining – so a HUGE hats off to you all!
Anyway, I am planning on getting back into writing on here regularly, and keeping everything I put on here as honest and truthful as I can. Obviously there is a line between honesty and privacy and I am very strict about that, but I wanted to speak out about the fact that it’s been, frankly, a bit shit the past few months because I know that I’m not alone in this and if putting this out there means that someone else doesn’t feel alone when they feel like they are struggling then my job is done.
Keep pushing forward everyone, support each other and we will be stronger.