The morning of Monday last week I was, frankly, absolutely pooing myself! I’ve sung in some massive venues across the world, I’ve performed roles onstage at the very last minute with next to no rehearsal, but this was without a shadow of a doubt, the most nervous I think I’ve ever felt. I think it was mostly because I felt like I didn’t know what to expect – it was just a completely new experience for me. I knew what I was going to say, and how to say it, but I was still absolutely petrified of the whole thing!
It all went by so quickly, and I still don’t entirely know if I said all the things I should have or missed anything REALLY obvious, but I think it went ok….I hope!
It was such a relief to have it done, and to be able to set it aside in my head and focus on everything else that we have going on. I know we are on study leave, but we still have so much to do at the moment in addition to the actual revision part.
We have had to finalise all of our practice documents for the year, making sure that every single box has been signed off, and tracking down the midwives whose signature you missed or forgot to get a “specimen signature” for.
On top of that we have also had to submit a couple of reflective essays and a drug workbook, filled with lots of questions about drug administration, all with references etc too. I finally managed to submit this on Friday so now it’s just a case of getting my tutor to sign off the final bits in my paperwork and then I’m submitting it – can’t wait to submit it all – it’ll be such a weight off my shoulders! Can’t wait!
Then it’s just the final two exams and I’m on holiday! Eek!
This week is the last week we have of study leave, and then Monday and Wednesday next week are my exams….I’m remarkably calm at the moment but watch this space…I reckon, come Saturday I’ll be talking swahili through my anxiety! Argh!
Image by Wes Hicks
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